Saturday, March 8, 2014
leaving and stopping
I am surrounded by drama, and I've tried hard never to start it but I am surrounded by it. I've never thought it was me, but recently I think I've been the cause of most of the drama in my life. I don't know why but I feel that I might be starting it, but its never my drama, and I don't really think that I start it but I have a very drama filled life. Especially with my friends that I have, they are all very drama filled and none of them really see that they are. I don't want to be friends with any of them, but as long as I am at my school there is nothing I can do. I have 3 months to deal with them, then I don't have to deal with any of them. I can't wait for June 6.
Shaming Sluts
I always lie about my sex life because people judge you no matter what and I would rather call me a slut then a prude, but my sex life is that I have none. I am a virgin and I need to really keep this in mind because I've given this "face" that I am a slut. I mean I've hooked up with many guys before, but never have I slept with someone. Most of my friends think that I've slept with like 4-8 people, but I never knew anyone really cared. Today I found out that my friend, Kyle, thinks I'm a huge slut, and I wouldn't care but apparently he actually makes fun of me for "sleeping around' and this doesn't really bother me because I know I'm not a slut, but coming from he it's just annoying. I also learned that he talks about me to others. My other friend, Rachael, told me this she is kind of a huge lier so I don't know if it is true or not, which makes it even more difficult because I can't ask Kyle anything because he would just deny everything.
No, I don't want to date you
I just don't understand how someone could be to annoying. I don't want to date you. I do not like you, you are a friend, and yet you still think this. I can understand how this is going on. My best friend, Kyle, is such a little prick sometimes. Everyone thinks I like him and I mean I understand that they would think that because I am very touchy feely with him, but I am this way with most boys that I am close with, and he also starts it with me and also continues it as well. People need to just let me be happy, I am happy with just being friends with him and that's all that I want. I don't want to date him nor do I like him, but everyone I know thinks that I do. I'm just scared that he will stop being my friend, or he'll stop wanting to hang out so much which would be terrible because he is one of my best friends and I enjoy being with him.
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